heartstroke.

heartstroke is what happens when your heat has been beating against my chest for just a little too long.not heat stroke. it effects me deeper than that. not heart break. im not that broken. just somewhere in the middle.

i miss you more than anyone could ever miss you.
and now, everything feels meaningless.
i know that i should be over you by now but...
i wasn't just in love with you.

it was more than that.
well, maybe not.
but it was more than a romance.
it was a friendship.
and now, even though i couldn't give less of a shit about the romance being over, i still miss you as a friend.

somebody to love me forever.
i believed you.

i mean, i clearly shouldn't have.


but, now i have handsome boy.
and he deserves me more than you ever did.
and i would do anything for him.

but im sick of explaining myself.

my #1 motto is trust your heart.
so here goes:

i still love eric.
but handsome boy is my TRUE love, and he governs my heart.
love is ownage.

and eric doesn't belong to me.

handsome boy belongs with pretty girl.

and that's the way the cookie crumbles.






ughh
.

maybe there's a reason that this blog has turned to bullshit.


are you supposed to share your every thought with anyone?

probably.
idk.

blogs are magic.